I keep on saying, keep on mentioning how Fizz and Z bond. There bond remind me of my relationship with my A.J. Its only now I realize she loves me as much as she does her Fizz... Yes, I had my doubts and I always felt am I doing something wrong. Then I realized it was just one of those mommy guilt trips I had been on. Z obviously needs me as much, and she loves me a lot. I just had to say it out LOUD to myself and I'm doing it right here... right now. This post is more for myself than for anyone else.
There are times when Z just has to be with her mommy and she needs no one else. And frankly speaking, I need these moments to keep me sane, and these moments happen magically at times when I feel unsure about myself as a mum.
Whenever Z gets hurt she needs me and just me. Fizz, even if he is there right in front of her does not matter... she just wants to rush to mommy and hug me. The moment I hug her, she stops crying in seconds... like magic.
When she goes to school, she wants me to accompany her to school. The school is a 5 minutes drive from our house and she wants both me and Fizz there, when we drop and pick her up. The other day, I wasn't feeling to good and while we picked her up. I was sitting in the car and Fizz went to pick her up... the moment she saw Fizz, she said "Momma, where is momma Fizzy?" and she kept looking for me till the time she saw me sitting in the car right in front of her, her face said it all.
Saturdays are days when I go out to work, I reach home around 5.30 in the evening. Today I asked my maid to help me take my stuff up from the auto as I reached home. I went to the nearby shop to pick something up. She saw my maid enter the house and she was expecting me. She kept on crying and looking for me till the time I entered the house.
Obviously she needs me most when she wants to listen to her stories or do her artwork.
These moments are moments I live for as a mum... rest of the time its just Fizz-Z bond.
There are times when Z just has to be with her mommy and she needs no one else. And frankly speaking, I need these moments to keep me sane, and these moments happen magically at times when I feel unsure about myself as a mum.
Whenever Z gets hurt she needs me and just me. Fizz, even if he is there right in front of her does not matter... she just wants to rush to mommy and hug me. The moment I hug her, she stops crying in seconds... like magic.
When she goes to school, she wants me to accompany her to school. The school is a 5 minutes drive from our house and she wants both me and Fizz there, when we drop and pick her up. The other day, I wasn't feeling to good and while we picked her up. I was sitting in the car and Fizz went to pick her up... the moment she saw Fizz, she said "Momma, where is momma Fizzy?" and she kept looking for me till the time she saw me sitting in the car right in front of her, her face said it all.
Saturdays are days when I go out to work, I reach home around 5.30 in the evening. Today I asked my maid to help me take my stuff up from the auto as I reached home. I went to the nearby shop to pick something up. She saw my maid enter the house and she was expecting me. She kept on crying and looking for me till the time I entered the house.
Obviously she needs me most when she wants to listen to her stories or do her artwork.
These moments are moments I live for as a mum... rest of the time its just Fizz-Z bond.
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