That's Z's favorite line and it completely melts
my heart. Well, it will melt anyone’s heart really…. Let me tell you, I’m a
tough nut to crack; I don’t give in easily when it comes to being a mom. Not a
tiger mom but definitely a tough mom for sure.
I try not to make it obvious to Z, but she can
totally make her Mumsy do almost anything when she makes one of the innocent
face and says "But I love you Mumsy".
It usually happens when I'm angry or she is
expected to do something she doesn't want. Like recently in Kanpur when I was
super angry with her. She was super clingy on the day we arrived. It was a long
journey, car ride till Bangalore Airport, flight
till Lucknow (with a halt at Calcutta) and drive of over 2 hours till we
reached Kanpur…both of us were tired. She wanted me and I wanted to relax and
be with my relatives. It is at moments like these, I want her to give me some
space. When she didn't calm down after all my Mommy tactics, I got angry...
didn't speak to her for almost 2 hours and she must've said "But I love
you Mumsy" at least 30 times (I stopped counting post that).
The other time when
she goes “But I love you Mumsy” is when I tell her to do something she doesn’t want
to. If I tell her to eat all the veggies I've added to the fried rice she just
makes a sorry face and says.... yeah you got it, "but I love you
Mumsy".
I never really have
made her feel she will get whatever she wants from me when she goes "But I
love you Mumsy"... In fact I don't even say 'Awwww how adorable”.
It became so
irritating at a point in time that all I wanted to do was just snap back at
her. Everyone started laughing at her the moment she said “But I love you Mumsy”.
I hated that… and I knew she hated that as well. Thank God I didn’t do that… I
tried to analyse the situation and her reaction. I spoke to her and realized she
says this because she doesn’t want to hurt me. When she wants something that I don’t
want, Z says “but, I love you Mumsy” to convince me to make me feel better. She
didn’t say all this but I could easily sense that. I hugged Z and told her “I
will love you not matter what. Mumsy gets angry, but I will always love you.”
From
that day (it’s been over a month), she says “Mumsy I love you” and I say “I
love you too.”
